Dancing to the Tune of My Heart
I've been feeling a bit up and down over the last week and actually the last few weeks. Emotionally and physically. That's the effect spring has on me.
I was born in October and maybe that's why. My favorite time of the year starts at the beginning of September. Oh, what a feeling! We have half a year of peace waiting for us. It's like floating on a calm sea surface. No noise, colors are soft, everything encourages to just feel good. There is so much space to connect with yourself. And create and just be. Beautiful period.
On the other hand, when spring starts to show, I start to feel anxiety, nervousness even for no reason, restlessness. So different from my true nature.
It's the same this year. But actually not completely, because I decided that I want to enjoy this challenging period as well. What's the point in wasting precious time just because I can't handle my own feelings? I can do it, of course! I want to do it, I decided. I will manage it.
And so, as the days get longer, the sun begins to gain strength, light penetrates our doors and windows from the early morning hours, I am learning not to let my emotions win over me. I still feel them, some days they can make me quite restless, but even if they do, and I find myself in an inner hurricane, I can still observe it all. I manage to be aware of what is happening. It is spring. Nothing unexpected. Just the spring effect on me. Nothing more.
And so, as the days of spring continue, I feel more relaxed this year. I accept the changes, I accept my reaction. It's natural. It's alright. There is nothing to fear. Or anything that I have to force myself to do differently than I feel.
I just observe it all. Changes around me. My own processes. My tendency to hide under the covers and wait there for everything to settle down and be the summer which I like, or better said, before it comes, I've gotten used to a different rhythm.
Here on the island, it may also be because the spring effect is even stronger. Everything is so bright and suddenly there are so many sounds everywhere. Not only birds are singing all day long, butterflies are starting to circle in the air, but people are also starting to prepare for the new season that is about to start. The excitement is almost palpable.
And I want to enjoy it this year. I want to enjoy it too. I want to celebrate the return of life force, a new beginning. I want to dance and celebrate my new self, my wish and strength and will to make the most of everything, to love everything, to let happen whatever has to happen, to simply be free. Just like a butterfly.
Just like a butterfly. This is it!
I want to feel like that butterfly. No more hiding under the covers or anywhere else. No more hiding from anything. Not in the spring, nor at any other season or under any other circumstances.
I am very happy for who I am. I'm fine. I'm fine with everything that makes me up. And I allow myself to be a butterfly that broke out of the package, where it was not hiding for some time, but transforming.
I am a butterfly that dances to the tune of my heart. Just the way I am. Finally. This is it. A new beginning is here.
Everyone can turn into a beautiful butterfly and together we can dance and celebrate the lightness of being (not only) in the spring scented air.
Love, K.
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